Just like the spikes that our tires roll over, we cannot go back now, our feelings are no long our own, the day has been made to hit the road but i do hope however circles arent your idea of traveling, so keep it light dont get all your things off the boat because you only need what you have. Hold it, for in that moment because nothing last forever. Soon the ship will set away for the bottom. Leaving a nice place to come and visit inside your mind of all the memories we laid to rest. Know that they aren’t in vein or looked upon in pain. Know that everything has changed because you know that i know that you know we are not the same. That aside i would like my mind to be mine for more than half the time. Not that your face is haunting me anymore but it makes me miss your touch, your tenderness, and your charm. In these moments that we look upon the world from below the water. We see things that werent all to clear upon the surface. I saw how hard a woman could try and the burning desire that kept her alive trying and crying the whole time, fighting harder that i’ve ever seen. I looked into her eyes and I understood her pain. I too have loved an won but was defeated in a different kind of way. In a way most men find to be there undoing. Greed is no longer an action in question, we always want more. It keeps us hanging on by the day keeping us striving for more. Know that I found a beautiful soul in her eyes. It wasn’t entirely my fault seeing as how we as people strive for compassion and time after time again we shought after to better understand these things. Im going through more emtions now as im trying to let her into my heart. I try to warn her but she doesn’t care. She see’s right through me, she too speaks eye’s. In hers i’ve found a place to start my reef on the ocean floor. Im going to build this thing right out of the water because im no longer sitting around thinking about the days that i watched go right by sitting staring at the clock. An the answer doesn’t show, maybe its the silence in the air as i sift my thoughts that moment after gathering all your thoughts and you stumble back into your frame of a body and ask your self, you ready. You don’t think twice any more. I am happy to have grown with you , an i thank you for the time we’ve spent. Now go be happy and don’t look back ill be fine. Just gunna take this one day at a time for now with a goal in mind for everyday. Seize opportunity.
The Second TIme You Fall In Love
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to feel so relieved. When you get your heart broken for the first time, you can’t imagine loving someone else again or having someone else love you. You worry about your ex finding love before you do, you worry about being damaged goods. And then it happens. Someone else loves you and you can sleep well at night.
The second time you fall in love with someone, it’s going to feel different. The first time felt like a dream almost. You were untouched, untainted by anyone. You accepted love with wide open arms and desperation. “Love me, love me, love me!” So you did. And then it fell apart and left you shocked to the core. You realized that people could be cruel and break your heart. You realized that people could stop meaning the sweet things they said to you just yesterday. So when you go into it again, you’re going to keep in mind everything that you’ve learned. You’re going to say, “Love me, love me, love me…until you don’t. In which case, I would like some advance warning. Thanks!”
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to compare it to your first love. That’s okay. That’s natural. You’re going to be studying the new love with judgement and wariness. “My ex never liked broccoli. Why the hell does this one eat so much broccoli?!” Discovering that you have the ability to love multiple people who are different and feel different is initially very jarring. Loving an unfamiliar body will leave you disoriented and in dire need of a map. That’s okay too. That’s to be expected. Just ask the new love for directions.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’re going to suffer from a bout of amnesia. You’re going to poke and prod at your lover’s body and be like, “Wait, how do I do this again? How do I love you? I think it starts with us having a moment together in some coffee shop, right?” It’s going to feel scary at first. Falling in love is sort of like riding a bike though. You never really forget.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you’ll be a more sane person. Your first love is when you get all of your insanity out. You behave like an insane monster because your mind is freaking out about all these new powerful feelings. By the second time, however, you have an idea of what works and what doesn’t. It’s by no means perfect. The insanity will make a cameo at some point. “Peek a boo. I’m here! Hope you didn’t forget about me!” But you can usually shoo it away after awhile.
The second time you fall in love with someone, you will hopefully have better sex. Do not quote me on this.
The second time you fall in love with someone will still be exciting and you might even talk about moving in together or marriage. It will feel more “adult.” You have no idea what adult love actually is but you think it involves making coffee for each other in the morning and maybe even getting a dog. “This is my dog, Xan. I got him with the second person I fell in love with because that’s what you do! The first person I was in love with would’ve killed a dog.”
The second time will not be the first time. The first time is an insane magical life gift that you can never reclaim. But that’s okay. The second time is more real anyway. The second time can involve some amazing love.
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http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/the-second-time-you-fall-in-love-with-someone/ by Ryan O’Connell What do you think? Do you think you can fall in love with the same person twice? How did your first love compare to your second? (via fivefootfierce) |
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